A New Love!!

Tonight I went with Sheila, my mom, my cousin Melanie, and my friend Sheree, to Ben Franklin (the craft store) to take a class on how to make beaded watches. HOLY COW!! I have found a new love!!! It was so fun. I am not one that dose all that girly stuff like, card making, cross stitching, knitting and scrapbooking. But I would have to say that I am now addicted to making beaded watches. I have always been interested in making jewelry, but every time I went to buy supplies I would get overwhelmed by all the types of bead, the colors, and the sizes, that I would get frustrated, give up, and walk away. Well tonight I couldn't walk away, so I asked for help to get started. The women that was teaching the class took me around the store showing me the types of beads that would be the best for the project that I was doing, then showed me how to put them together. Once I sat down to work on them it just seem to flow. It is so easy and fun, almost goofproof. I dont know what I was so nervice about. We had a great time and I could have stayed all night long, It was a great night.

The day I would have liked to skip!

Today was one of those days, you know the ones that you wish you could just skip over. It started off OK until I remembered I had a appointment with my case worker to talk about my schooling, I had not prepared the information I was supposed to bring to her (that is what I get when I procrastinate) so I scrambled to put it all together before I went. On the way to the meeting I stared going over all the things that need to happen for me to go back to school and all the people that it would affect. The more I thought about it the more upset I became, I just wanted to give up before it all got started, it just felt like to much work and stress and I was going to have to sacrifice a lot in order to do this:

• Move back in with mom and dad (if I can talk dad into it)

• Refinance our house, so Dan and Sheila can afford for me to move out.

• Find a job that pays more then 8 bucks a hour part time (in this economy, good luck!)

• Qualify for financing

• Cut expenses in half

• Get the SCHOOL TO CALL ME BACK (I have only called 100 times, OK a little of a exaggeration)

The thing is I know this is what I need to do right now in my life, I just fill like there is a lot holding me back. 

Anyway after my meeting I went to my Mom and Dads house to talk to Dad about the "M" word. My mom and I made sure dinner was on the table when he got home to help butter him up for the big talk.

He got home and I could tell that he was not in the best mood, but I really needed to talk to him because school starts the end of May, so things had to be moving along.

I brought it up after dinner and ...... Nothing, he didn't say a word, so I asked him if he heard me and still nothing, he didn't even look at me. So I asked him again about what he thought about the idea of me moving back in so I could go to school..... Nothing. So I put on my coat and went home, of corse I balled all they way home. It is so stressful anyway and for him to not even talk to me about it did not help the matter at all. 

So I guess I need to find a new plan.... It sucks, but I am not giving up, I will be going back to school one way or the other.

Sorry this post was depressing:(

Europe here I come!!

That is right I am going to Europe in September. I bought a plain ticket on Tuesday.
I am supper nervous for a bunch of reasons, I don't currently have a job and I'm not sure how soon I will get one, and on top of that, I'm not sure how or when I will get money to go, but we got a killer deal on the plain tickets and I couldn't pass it up. The second reason I am nervous about is; I have never really traveled out of the country. I have been on a few cruses out of the country but that is not really like going out on your own. They do everything for you like getting around, food, lodging, ex.... But I thought that I might not ever get the chance to do this again, so I just jumped in. I had decided that this year (the year I turned 35) I was going to jump into life and live it fully and not wait for everything to be perfect before I do. that is why I just had to take the chance and I know that it will all work out some how. This year is going to be a lot of firsts for me, I hope that I look back when I'm old and can say that the best time of my life was when I was 35:) I will let you know how it goes.

I caved in

Yes! I fell into doing a blog. Sheila (My twin sister) has been doing one for awhile and there has been a lot of things that I have wanted to say when reading it. So I thought it would be good to start a blog myself. This blog will have some weight watcher tips and trick, and I will let you know how I'm doing on my weight loss. Also I want to talk about being 35, LDS and still single. I am running a Marathon in September and wanted to blog on how my training is going. from time to time I will through in some digital scrapbooking tips, and currant art projects I am working on.
I am really exited to have an outlet for my feelings and too be able to talk to others who are in my same boat. I have felt a little left out, with being able to express my feelings on losing my new niece, and will now and then touch on those feelings. I basically feel that I need to be heard, and am looking forward to this outlet. Thanks!