The day I would have liked to skip!

Today was one of those days, you know the ones that you wish you could just skip over. It started off OK until I remembered I had a appointment with my case worker to talk about my schooling, I had not prepared the information I was supposed to bring to her (that is what I get when I procrastinate) so I scrambled to put it all together before I went. On the way to the meeting I stared going over all the things that need to happen for me to go back to school and all the people that it would affect. The more I thought about it the more upset I became, I just wanted to give up before it all got started, it just felt like to much work and stress and I was going to have to sacrifice a lot in order to do this:

• Move back in with mom and dad (if I can talk dad into it)

• Refinance our house, so Dan and Sheila can afford for me to move out.

• Find a job that pays more then 8 bucks a hour part time (in this economy, good luck!)

• Qualify for financing

• Cut expenses in half

• Get the SCHOOL TO CALL ME BACK (I have only called 100 times, OK a little of a exaggeration)

The thing is I know this is what I need to do right now in my life, I just fill like there is a lot holding me back. 

Anyway after my meeting I went to my Mom and Dads house to talk to Dad about the "M" word. My mom and I made sure dinner was on the table when he got home to help butter him up for the big talk.

He got home and I could tell that he was not in the best mood, but I really needed to talk to him because school starts the end of May, so things had to be moving along.

I brought it up after dinner and ...... Nothing, he didn't say a word, so I asked him if he heard me and still nothing, he didn't even look at me. So I asked him again about what he thought about the idea of me moving back in so I could go to school..... Nothing. So I put on my coat and went home, of corse I balled all they way home. It is so stressful anyway and for him to not even talk to me about it did not help the matter at all. 

So I guess I need to find a new plan.... It sucks, but I am not giving up, I will be going back to school one way or the other.

Sorry this post was depressing:(